Kendra Wilkinson: 'I Feel I Could Look Better'

VIDEO: Kendra Wilkinson says she envied how fast the starlet lost her baby weight.

Former Playboy Playmate-turned-reality-TV star Kendra Wilkinson has built her career around her voluptuous figure. But the constant focus on her body caused her to struggle with her weight, Wilkinson said.

Her toughest weight battle occurred when she tried to lose the weight she gained, following the birth of her son, Hank Jr., now one year old. The 5'4" mom said she went from 105 pounds to 165 pounds, a dramatic change which was played out on her latest reality show, "Kendra."

"My pregnancy was a free for all," Wilkinson said. "I had no boundaries. I just ate, ate, ate. I just said, 'This is my time, these are my nine months, I can just have fun, how big can I really get?' Sixty pounds! I gained 60 pounds!"

"Primetime: Celebrity Weight Loss -- What Really Happens" is an hour-long special airing on Wednesday, Jan. 5 at 10 p.m. ET.

After giving birth, Wilkinson said she was "shocked" when her money-making body didn't instantly bounce back from the pregnancy.

"I looked in the mirror and I said, 'I'm fat,'" Wilkinson said. "I blew up like a blowfish."

She tried ramping up her daily workout routine in the gym and running outside in the heat while wearing sweats, but Wilkinson said she still couldn't lose the baby weight like other celebrity moms had.

"I didn't lose one pound," she said. "I will admit, I was jealous after giving birth to my baby and I started seeing Kourtney Kardashian losing all that weight really fast."

Comments about Wilkinson's weight gain flooded the Internet, and a Chicago radio personality told her during an interview that she had lost her sex symbol status. Her frustration and admitted depression grew as the she failed to shed the pounds, and her fight with her weight became the focus of her reality show.

In one episode, Wilkinson broke down and said, "I don't feel pretty anymore. I just feel so ugly."

"I asked for the cameras to be there," she said of that episode. "I wanted the world to see what I really went through and it was hard. What perfect timing to invite my three gorgeous friends into town when I felt my lowest."

Wilkinson Says Airbrushing Makes Her 'Look Like a Hypocrite'

Although Wilkinson admitted she contemplated having liposuction and a breast reduction, she never went through with any cosmetic surgery procedures.

"After baby number two I am getting all that work done," she said. "I feel I deserve to look good. ... I feel I could look better."

However, some of Wilkinson's post-baby body magazine covers have been under scrutiny because the former Playmate looks thinner than she actually is.

"I can't say they weren't airbrushed or they weren't touched up," she said. "When I do see a picture of myself that has been touched up too much, I do get a bit sad ... it makes me look like a hypocrite. It breaks my heart. I would rather shoot a magazine and shoot my flaws but that's not up to me."

This hasn't been the only time in Wilkinson's life when her weight has been an issue. While living in the Playboy mansion, Wilkinson's curves not only earned her countless Playboy magazine covers, but also a spot on Hugh Heffner's arm and the hit reality TV show, "The Girls Next Door." But maintaining that perfect 10 figure was stressful and intense.

"My body back at the Playboy mansion was the most important thing in life back then because we were in the spotlight every minute," Wilkinson said. "We had to look good. The girls who gained the weight, those were the girls who didn't get the work."

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